so i've tons os stuff to clear today.
plan of the day:
1. finish EM P2
2. revise bio/chem 1 chap
3. do SS SBQ
4. do hist at least 1 SEQ qns
5. EL compre
6. class relay thing
pretty ambitious hurh.
i doubt i can finish.
i better get started

yesterday is a fun day.
i realised that going to bigbookshops and rotting there is a pleasure
read comics and found a nice book i want to buy.
and i cutted my nails.
french manicure are quite impossible at this time

as always
i cant seem to sleep in the middle of the nite
all these sleepless nite
makes me think of you.

bored.mum is out to jog.bro is out for sch.
i'm so alone at home.
cos i cant wake up in time to pei mum go jogging .lols

ystrdae pretty much rotted at home after school
yupps.lunched with van
CHENDOL is so nice.woots.i love it
been ages since i eat.hahas
slpt until dinnertime.
then after tad mugged a lill.

going out later(:
i dunno to cut my nails or not
i 好不容易grow until tis long
arghh.i wan french manicure
but like tad how to play piano?
rahhs.the ultimate sacrifice.

他们说
相遇 是上帝安排的
离别 是上帝安排的
重逢 是上帝安排的
那我想问
擦身而过
是否 也是上帝安排的？


"爱上一个人，可以是一瞬间的事。但，要忘记一个人，可能一辈子都办不到。"
it kinda means a lot hurh.at least to me.

i'm so done-and-over with chinese.
not a good start.
first i woke up like kinda late.and i din realise.
when i realised.i chiong-ed like siao.
then i realised tad i forget to bring ezlink
which is rahhs and more rahhs.
lucky i got bring ic.
or not sure die.
then late for the assembly thing.
yupps.thing me and van and geo are the last peo

Os was uh.ok?i dunno
paper 1 was like rahhs.
cos the zuowen i only noe how to do 1 qns
the other 2 choices was totally like huh to me
then p2 was i dunno
the first section was tough for me
then the rest think still can
cross my fingers.i hope to get a1 for cl

then went home changed and go library.
met caiyi and georgina.hahas
then later went for ptm.
results was ya.not good.
the hols hmwk are out and its like so much
the maths are seriously going to kill me.
and there are lessons tml.
i think i'm quite dead.
i must not be late.
i must not be late again.

off the mug/read storybook/slp
(:

arghh.i'm so damn pissed off.
my bro is playing soccer in tis room which is so noisy.
rahhs.
plus i've been doing hist for the past 3-4 hours.
just that one essay.but it sure drives me mad.
later nite is some celebration for my bro bdae
steamboat(: hahas.

Os tml.i'm not feeling anything.
i'm so dead.
and i need to complete all those overdued assignment.
no more sleep for me hurh.

peo in love are just so cute hurh! (:
but tads not me.lols
report book tml.
i think i'll just die on the spot.
my results.abcdefg!

too lazy to post these few days.
yupps.v tired for no particular reason.
i'm still not totally recoverd.which is bad enough
and went for the backbone checkup thing in the morning.
my height remain and my weight increased.
this is like so damn bad.
i shall not eat so much during the hols. ):

CL O are just 2days away.
i'm not not not in the mood to revise.
dunno why i'm not scared or something.
i guess there's something wrong hurh.

went sch for a few hours yesterday.
did practically nothing.
then went galavanting.hahs
played piano during recess.
after recess went pigeon hole with mad.
then saw mstan and was chatting with her.
she's quite nice actually.
i was laughing like mad.i think ms tan probally think i'm some siao gurl
then at nite.陈老师called me.
this is liek the second time le.
at first dun wan to answer the call.cos i was busy practising piano.
then no choice.he asked me bout the cl revision thing.
then blahblah.then he wished my good luck and tads it.
its so scary when a teacher called.
i thought i did somthing wrong.
bahhs.nevermind.

i'm so looking forward to every music lesson.
byes for now.
i'm psycho-ing myself to study study and study.
mum's food are always sos tempting.

SPORT CARNIVALA! (:
its kinda fun.at least better than being in hte classroom hurh!

ran for relay.
yupps.just realised tad 430m is damn lond distance.
esp with the slopes.boos
its so freaking abcdefg!
like the first time is to warn peo to move away from the track
not to start running.!
but peo start running
i'm the only saint tad realised its not time to run yet.
but wad to do.
everyone ran so i also ran
and i'm so lagged behind
tried to catch up.but din realli get the first place.
was realli trying to makes the gap big
so tad poor joansie dun have to run so hard.
but i think i did badly.din help much.
i'm sosososo sorryyy.
but in the end got 2nd.
i've tried my best
we've tried our best.
so no regrets.maybe a bit.
but good job anyw(:

time flies.
then watched tugofwar pushball and stuff
the pushball was sure a v rough game
peo are falling and rolling on the big yoga-like ball
hope eagles win.
i suan-ed someone.and i'm feeling so bad bout tad
maybe i should apologize

went to meet mum and bro at pepperlunch.
then pei-ed my mum to ntuc but loads of stuff
my legs hurt.
and i think i got a bit of sunburn
it looks like i'm blushing.rahhs
tiring.but i think i'm happy

whn i'm alone sitting where u used to sit
only then did i realised
its so hard to let go.
those memories.they are just so everywhere.
teach me how to forget.

sch was boring
got some police talk thing in the morning.
the person is fierce.like super scary

slacked the rest of the time.
titration-ed in chem
yupps.quite fun hurh.
then el in library.but i slacked
was chatting with huixian and mummy.
then din finish my work. ):

slpt until its dinner time
but i'm still so tired.
tml is sports carnival.
i wan EAGLES to win.

won XXX.but my class position din improve.
i'm setting a new target(:

sometimes.
i feel like giving myself up to june hols
after tad.maybe i shld just
forget bout himm and conc on my Os
but seriously.
i doubt i can even do tad.
just thinking bout hte past.
makes it so hard to let go.

being sick is so abcdefg!
esp when its after exam
esp when its good food time
esp when its play time
esp when its wadever time

the sore throat and flu bug are irritating
i wasted dunno how many packets of tissue
i ate the bitter bitter medcine.
i cant talk cos of this
my voice becomes so weird.
cant talk properly.much less hum out song

had heats yesterday.
yupps.won the falcons but lost to hawks.
another abcdefg.
i shall not talk bout tis.
yupps.anyw.it feels so not good playing caps when u r sick

slpt in cl lesson today.
heard tad they took pic of me slping. ):
first time i realli slpt.
guess i was too tired.all cos of those medicines.
music fiesta today.
some were good.others out of pitch/ryhthm
then after tad when to eat and went for music
sometimes.i ask myself if i regreted taking music.
yes its a tough sub.
it cant be defined in any way.
it is chim to some and u need to prac
i'm serious.like 1 hour everyday is so never enough
but then again.
i'm so in love with music.
i dun care if its classical or pop or wadever.
just music cheers me up.

while walking back home i was thinking if its not for himm.
i wont be reading and trying to understand those lyrics
if it not for himm.
my chinese will still be so bad
if its not for himm.
i wun be so in love with music.
if its not for himm.
i wun be me.
maybe i'll be someone else.
but without music.i guess i'll be so empty


think i was late for tuition.
i thought mad was asking 几点？
i din noe tad she was actually saying 再见
i feel so dumb.lols

(:

sat was FUN! (:
went to eat with van.hahas.
medium steak are so nice can XP
then after tad went to watch spidey.
cos od the free tix.yupps.
quite ok lah.but its like 2.5 hrs
damn long.and yeah.
spidey does resembles mr bean sometimes.hahas
we was laughing like hell during those 'emo' scenes.lols

dang!
i think i'm sick.
those flu and cough and sore throat bugs.
made me sleep straight after tuition.
and phy.hais.its so gonecase
i'm studying tonite.
realli.but i'm really sleepy
no matter how much i sleep just now.
planning to finish cl stuffs and er.chem?or bio?

i suddenly remember those time before the music mye
when we crap loads.
laughing and ya.just joking around.
and i its seriously loves.

tml is HEATS.
and blue mighty eagles( i think so) better win!
i promise to bring marsmallow tml. X)

schooled.
they talked about the graduation party
should i go?sounds fun.
hahas.but after tad was vp scolding us bout our results
the msg are super high.
its like super duper bad kind of results.
yupps.calculated marks.
hoping to win XXX and someone else.
i'm so crossing my fingers.(:

went co!
i miss my cello like hell.
i'm so glad i came.
the same room where we prac so hard
the same tunes tad i'm so familiar i can even hum it in my dreams
the same touch of my cello
the same jiaolian tad knows practically everything bout co
the same coldness of the room
the same faces of those co members
the same messy store
just like before.like nothing ever changes
many new juniors.
hope they'll love cello(:
cello cher taught me the swam
he said tads grade7 songs.
hahas.can play only a bit.
i dun even know where are those super high notes.
but its nice.my high notes are always out of tune.lols
denise and the rest was also there.
later went tuition.
she walked me until the gate there.lols(:

sometimes i wonder.
why peo change so much
and if changes
are always for the better.
i guess not always hurh.

i owe u all marsmallows.
i'm so sorry i forget.
next mon! (:

blogger finally works(:
i miss blogging.

loads of things happens.yupps
the results.the exams.the post-exams
exams are over which are so great.
loves those times we crap before music exam
and memorizing the 'all-mighty' papa haydn
which is abcdefg.buti read 4-5 times and memorized it liao(:
so scored in essay.though i wrote super long for her
practical wasnt vgood
played the cadenza wrongly(just 1 part) for the dunno how many hundreds of times

results were way below below expectation.
my expecatation
i now some say my results were good.they wan my results blah
but.its still just dissapoint me.
those Bs tad i scored make me sad
esp chem.
i need like 1 more marks for music chem bio
yupps.today went through bio
hope i can get somemore marks.
going through exam papaers in hall is sure abcdefg.
cos it make my legs so numb
i hope i win XXX!

post exams are loves!
my dad came.went out wth them.
then went to yamaha and esplanade library-super loves
prac piano more.
going for movie this sat(:
but i think i'm starting to mug
like all the guys in class like start to mug cl.
and i haven done anything.
this is so worrying

haven been seeing critically angle for like 1 week
sometimes.i somehow noe tad tis will happen
just tad.its kinda weird.
walking to sch without himm.
the same road seems different
the same road feels different.

10 things i miss bout criticall angle:
1.talking bout music and more music.his guitar and my piano.and chopin
2.being sheltered when its raining.his checkered umbrella
3.knowing tad his behind and he will catch up with me
4.standing so close i think he can hear my heartbeat
5.strepsils tad he gave me.his体贴ness
6.deciding if taking the stairs or escalator is better
7.missing the train
8.himm照-ing 镜子and trying to make his hair stand
9.being so myself when i'm with himm
10.just his presence.
i'm mad.wadever.
i must psycho myself not to be selfish.
he cant to late everytime because of me

long post.
i dun wan to be sick at the wrong time!

seriously
i think i've got no sense of urgency
i haven study music
i finished bio only like a few min ago
i chionged every subject like so last min
tis time last year
i finish studying for music weeks before exams start
tis time last year
i din burn any midnight oil

i'm so so inspired to compose during exam times
tis is so bad.
i spent like 10min during el summary writing a chunk of cl words
and i'm so happy.
then chionged the summary.craps /:
the heavy price i paid.

anyw.i'm MUGGING for MUSIC tml
ur papers will officially ends at 9am on thur
but not for me hurh.
but its ok.musicmusicmusic
psycho me to study please.PLEASE!
i need to learn about haydn
i need to memorize kamien
i need to memorize chord progression.
i need to study world music
i need to do midi cakewalk.
i need to prac piano
i need/want to see critical angle.

total madness
so little time.
i shall mug somemore bio
cos i dun wan to fail ):

arghh.
my stomach is damn pain.
i've totally no idea why but its killing ):
i cant concentrate

mugged thru the whole midnight ystrdae(X
finish half of chem tb.hahas
then today i officially finish chem! (:
hooray.now i can conc on bio and music
which is like DEAD!
4 mor edays to freedom

went to revise with denise in the morning.
did her phy and emaths
then lunched.delicious(:
then treated her drinks and went home.
denise 要一杯denise.加多一点denise!
lols lah.saw sebby at cp

i shall mug somemore cos i wan to win xxx
changing piano cher again.
how dead can i be?!?
haydn is the cause of my misery.
how can he be worth one-third og a 100m paper?
NO! i rather study CHOPIN or DVORAK
i wan to study the love of mu life ):
i wan to play piano for hours
i wan to go CO
i wan to slp
i wan the stupid pain to go away ):

u noe.when i see your sms the first thing in the morning
i remembered those days..
how nice is it to have ur sms waiting hurh
i guess we are just 习惯
我 只想做你的公主
拥有 那平凡的幸福

把爱情热情激情
加减乘除后
是否答案是永远
请你证明给我
my inspiration during amaths test.proving qns hurh
suddenly.inspiration is everywhere(X

amaths and hist is quite ok. think still do-able. yupps.but i still want to pass with flying colours better still if can win those super pro in hist de.. chem prac like so hard test for dunno wad gas.i cant find anything. turn out to be nd to use theory knowledge kind no.think cannot make it lo): din see himm today. i dunno wads happening.boos

FLUNKED!
my phy is gone case.confirm la
mcq i most prob wun study.
cos got music.
think i'm really v dead
prac did something wrong.
lucky he tell me.
or not also another gone case

went tuition!
i din overslp for the first time!
havin nightmares lately.
its like i cant sleep without waking up because of some stupid dream
i'm going to slp slp slp tml after exam! (:

'u wun wait forever'
it hurts to see this ):

EXAM BLUES! i'm feeling os f**king stressed up): i cant slp properly at nite. either having nightmares or ya.just cant slp i dunno if or not i'm prepared for tml's exam emaths and phy i think i should just die on the spot last year.i wasnt even bothered to study this year.i spent 2days studying for phy nth seems to go inside. tell me i'll pass emaths and phy. i'm so desprate for some reassurance! rahhs i need to psycho myself to mug i need to tell myself tad i can pass phy boy.walk with me there again tml i just.seems to miss you so much it kinda feels weird. is like i've been seeing you everyday weekday. even somedays wi/o talking.buti noe you're there today. its only me. its without you. its something i dun wan and dun like. it makes me think do you do all these. because of me. taking the mrt.being late for sch. are these worth it for someone like me? sometimes. i hope you'll just be there. i thought of saying tad to you. but i'm just afraid. tell me everything gonna be fine cos you'll be there for me i just love writing songs during classtime i rather a bad hair day for the whole then not pass my emaths and phy paper

this is bad.
i've been thinking a lot lately.
yupps.dunno why.
i guess the reason is because
he appeared in my dream ystrdae.
its freaking.so freaking
its like so totally wad i never want to happen
hope tad dreams and reality is complete opposite
nightmare.go away.!
just tad.the image seems to haunt me
i cant concentrate!
我只要
简单爱
不要怀疑
因为我爱你
is it coincidence.
somehow i think tad the time he sends me sms is the time i dreamt of himm
*shivers*

MUGGING!
haydn is the cause of my misery.rahhs):
i'm so looking forward to post exam activities.
i wanna go shopping.watch spidey.
and devote myself to my piano(: